My beloved feline son died yesterday

Question:
 Hello, my name is Wendy and me and my house mate, Mark lost our beloved feline son, Dodger yesterday August 28, 2003. I have my own website at: www.freewebs.com/pynx/ if you'd like to know about me. I am totally distraught. Dodger was 10 years old. I feel like I am never going to be happy again.
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 My beloved first cat, the first pet I ever had in my life, my Dodger who I love like my son has died. Suddenly, unexpectedly, yesterday Aug. 28 around 5 pm. About 1 week ago on the weekend Dodger was on the windowsill in the living room and Mark said his body went "limp". Mark got scared and I ran out in the living room and the cat recovered to his normal self, licked his lips and seemed fine! All week he was fine, the very night before he died he ate 4 Pounce Tuna treats that I gave him and I petted him and I said I love you Dodger. Well, on Thurs. he resumed sitting in the kitchen window sill as he usually likes to - seemed perfectly normal. So I get home after the pool closed at 4:30 and the Mark is at the stove crying his heart out and Dodger was all stretched out on his tummy by his food dish howling in pain. I put him on my bed and called the vet immediately. I told the vet his symptoms just started and it is extremely similar to the bladder problem he was hospitalized for 3 years ago. The vet said they could not see him until tomorrow morning and to go to the ER on Kensington if need be. So after I put Dodger on my bed he retreated to hide behind it and cried out in pain just like he did when the bladder thing happened. Well he came back out of hiding and was on his back on the floor having a seizure! I picked him and his breathing was very labored and panting. I was frantic at this point and layed him on my mattress where he kept seizing so I called the vet and told them I was goint the ER pronto, they said they'd call the ER & tell them I'm on my way - then I went back to Dodger to get him in the car and the vet called me back and I told them this is VERY DIFFERENT than the other time with the bladder and I think he is dying! They said to bring him to the office NOW! Mark could not deal with it he was having a nervous breakdown as he is more Dodger's mother than father. I honestly think Dodger left this earth on my bed. I got in the vet's and they took him in the back and the tech come out and said, "Have a seat please and I'll tell you what is going on" - Then Dr. so and so I can't remember the name came out and said "He's gone". "I'm sorry". The gave me the option of leaving him there or taking him home so I took him home and held his dead body in my arms and I howled in pain and despair over losing this beautiful creature. Later in the night, me, dad and Mark had a burial service and I feel better that he is at peace with Jesus. I knew he went to Jesus on my bed. I am so weak, numb, distraught, even the wind hurts me - that is how sensitive I am. I don't really want to be on this earth without my Dodger. We adopted him at age 2 from the S.P.C.A. and he was our precious feline son for 8 years which makes his life span only 10 years. Please be with me in heart at this sad time.
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 :'( Hi there Wendy, I read your post about your 'baby' Dodger, and I am soooo soooorry. You are hurting and I understand. This might not take away the pain, but maybe it will help a little. You gave Dodger a beautiful life, and he loved you. You did all the right things and made his life special. That's all we can do, and he was happy and enjoyed you each day. You were the best. Keep that with you and know he wouldn't want you to be so sad. You were blessed and so was he.