i lost my baby boy

Question:
 I have never joined a chat room a forum or anything like this, but I am desperate to share my feelings with those that know what I am experiencing first hand. My husband and I are true animal lovers. We have (had) 2 dogs and 2 cats. They all sleep with us and are more than just our pets. They are our children. Night before last I was outside laying in our hammock when I heard big dogs barking and a whimpering noise. You see, Bandit (we called him PeeWee) was deaf and hardly ever barked. The whimpering was him. He had crawled under the fence into our neighbors yard where he was attacked by one of their many MEAN dogs. PeeWee was the most precious thing. He was a beautiful white "reindeer faced" chihuahua. We loved him even more because of his deafness. In fact, his owner did not want him because he was deaf. We loved him and was part of our family for a little over a year. Because he was so small and well behaved we took him wherever we could. He went to football games with us, traveled with us. Even though he couldn't hear, he always knew when I would get home. I would drive up and see him through our kitchen picture window jumping on the chair so happy to greet me. Going back to Sunday night, when I saw him on the other side of the fence in that dog's mouth I went hysterical. I couldn't get to him. I screamed and ran inside to yell for my husband. He ran out, jumped the fence, and handed his bloody body to me. There was blood all over and I saw feces so I knew his abdomen was punctured. I could hear the gurgling coming from his lungs. We drove straight to the Vet ER. They did emergency surgery. His lung was punctured. They had to remove part of his pancreas and part of his intestine. The damage was so much more than they originally thought. They didn't give him much of a chance. We stayed until he tried to wake up from surgery so he would see us there. He did see us there and knew we were with him. After he was stable, we went home and received a phone call about 2 hours later. It was midnight. Bandit had had a cardiac arrest. We decided to let him go rather than them open up his chest and do extreme measures other than CPR. He had already gone through so much pain. After the phone call.,we went back to see him and to say good bye. The feelings we had must be what parents go through when they lose their people children. (I know now that was also part of why I had so much pain.) My husband and I picked him up early yesterday morning and brought him home for his final resting place. We spent ALL DAY crying and mourning, which helped me to be better today, I think. The tears are not as heavy today, but the sadness is devastating. Our other pets are also feeling the pain and sadness. The bill for that night was $2,000. We are not a wealthy couple, but had enough in our savings to pay for his care. I agree with my husband when he says he would've paid a million dollars to get him back. The vet was so compassionate and I know they tried everything they could. I am sorry for this being so wordy, but I needed this outlet I think to help me begin to cope. We are so sad and I don't even have the words to express this sadness acurately. Luckily, my friends and family are sad with me and not one of them has said anything hurtful, like "He was just a dog." They all know the love we had for Bandit. Thank you for having this outlet for me to share this experience. It will get better, won't it?:'(
Answer:
 hi i just lost my baby boy last week and i wanted to say i hope you and your husband are doing ok and that more and more often when you see your lil boy's face it brings a smile to your face and not a tear to your eye kyena's mom