We just can't accept it...we can't ...please help

Question:
 hi...i just found this forum and i don't even know how to begin...last night life was great...we were having dinner watching a movie our babies Frida and Monse were on the couch waiting for us to go sit wih them to finish watching the movie…and suddenly in an instant everything changes...some friends came over unexpectedly…and we needed to take the trash out, to which one of them offered…since both our dogs are inside and we hardly take them out because the park by our apt. is very dirty plus Frida had been on her period and the neighborhood dogs were after her…so when our friend opened the door to take out the trash the bag ripped and we helped her but Frida took advantage of that moment and ran out the door. It had happened before but she never goes far or long…we always go catch her…and this time was no different…we ran to go get her but she was too happy being outside…so we came back inside being that our friends were visiting…but then we went out again…a matter of minutes and couldn’t see her…we got in the car drove around…driving further each time but she wasn’t in sight. As we were pulling up to our apt. I saw something white move on the other side of the fence separating the park from the highway…we ran…only in time to see her cross the street…she had gotten out of the fence through a hole she found running from another dog that was harassing her…she got across safely the first time but then about 20 cars together started passing by and I guess she must’ve gotten scared because she tried to cross back and the car in the first lane missed her but the truck speeding the next lane didn’t and we watched in horror how she was killed in front of our eyes…and how the cars continued to run her over…we can’t take that image out of our heads and we don’t know what to do or how to deal with it… she was the world’s best dog…I didn’t even like female dogs until she came in to our lives about 8 months ago when we found her on the street only a couple of months old…she was…there are no words that could describe what she meant and how much we loved her…our lives revolved around her and Monse and our 3 ferrets…and now we just feel so much much pain…and so much emptiness…if only we could turn back time…can anybody explain why these things happen? Why it hurts so much? How do you go on? HOW???
Answer:
 OMG ..that is what I live in fear of! I am truly sorry and I can only hope that you are somehow able to possibly be able to have some kind of service for her to help begin the healing process. Also see my link below. As for your questions 1> it was a mistake replay that night over...you'll find the reason 2>because you loved her and still do 3> becuase you must, you family and your other pets need you and they morn too.
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 I saw a dog hit that wasn't my own and the image lives with me... Saw it when I was in my teens. The same thing happened with the car(s) just continuing on as though nothing had happened and the life that was just squashed out of existence didn't even matter... The fact is it will always be with you and always bring pain when thought of at unbidden moments through your life. It is a loss you will grieve as though any other member of your family has died tragically. I hope she died instantly... that may be what you can hang onto. No pain. Also that you gave her a few months of love and acceptance into your family. I'm sorry for your loss... A web site offers little comfort, but it may connect you with others experiencing the same emotions and help you through it some: